All I see is you

The very first day I saw you, running up into your arms, the first kiss, the first touch - I can remember it all so well. It was amazing and PERFECT. After that very moment, I knew that it would only get better..and it definitely has! Each day that passes, I know it just means it's one more day closer to seeing you, feeling you and being with you again. Each night I'm dreaming of you and wishing you were here next to me. Being so far away from you is killing me. Not being able to share everyday with you, hold you in my arms, hear your voice, feel your touch, kiss your lips and have your hand in mine, it hurts so much. I wish I could be there with you to hug and kiss and squeeze you all day and night, but our time will come before we know it. I honestly think when you do come back it will have brought us closer because we will appreciate what we have so much more. All the things that we've been talking about, I know we need get it all straight, but no matter what happens, we will be together, that's a promise. No matter what path you and I decide to chose, I want you to know how much you mean to me and how much I truly love you. Like I said before, you're stuck with me! What's meant to happen, will happen. Just like us, I believe WE were meant to happen and here we are. I can't wait to start our lives together, where we can share our ups and downs, our problems and joys, the good and the bad. Fate has put us through this but we'll make it and come out stronger in the end. I'm so thankful that we found each other and I couldn't imagine what or where my life would be if it hadn't happened. I love you so much and I'm counting down the days until I can hold you again.

It's not goodbye..it's see you soon

Saying our farewell was so hard. I didn't even imagine it when he first got here. It hadn't really hit me that I'd have to farewell in only a few short weeks. Our time together was truly amazing and I can't wait till the day that we can pick it back up again. When I'll see you once again in an airport, but I'll be picking you up this time! Taking him there sucked but I knew it had to be done. We did have one extra day that we didn't think would happen, but it did and it was awesome. I'm so thankful for the time that he did have. We'll just have to take this one day at a time and get through it. I think of all the army wives, girlfriends and fiances that send their men off. I certainly have a newfound respect for them. It is indeed hard. Yes, I may be a new "significant other" in this thing, but I'm here and this is the path I have chosen. You can't help who you fall for I guess. I hope that I'm strong enough for this, that's why I started this whole blog thing. It helps me get my thoughts out and tie me to other people that are going through the same thing. One day at a time is definitely my new motto!!

Leave time

Okay, so I thought getting off the plane and seeing C was amazing, but the time we spent together was even MORE amazing! We had lots of fun even with our mishaps with his car along the way!

We spent the first week in Columbus. I got to meet his family and loved his parents! We got along so well, which is one of the greatest things I could ask for. How could a girl not want to get along with the parentals? His mom and I clicked so well that for practically that whole week I was in her kitchen cooking with her. We went to church together and she even brought me to my very first volunteering at a womens shelter. I can say that it was one I won't forget. You never understand what people go through, unless you listen to their stories and look around and realize where you are in life. You really do take things for granted until you're faced with how other people live, eat and sleep. I can honestly say a little part of me has changed from just spending some time there.

We went out to downtown Columbus and shopped around with his best friend and his wife. They are by far the cutest couple and her belly was a growing part to that family. She's 8 months pregnant and it was so cute to see that again..oh how I miss it! (Just not ready again yet..that's a whole other story on its own!) We went to the Melting Pot and stuffed out faces! There shopping there is amazing by the way, it's like a city of just shops and restaurants, it's so awesome! I love it there.

After spending a week there, we packed up and headed out in his convertible Eclipse. Here we come, FL or bust! And let me tell you..it almost was a bust! We left at 8am for our 18 hour drive. Everything was going good..we were barely in West Virginia before we had our first stop, Mickey D's..no Starbucks around in this hick town! I needed my coffee fix if I was going to survive this! It was probably every 2 hours that we stopped cause of my damn bladder with all the drinks I had. Oh well, I had to go! We made it to South Carolina when we ate at Hooters..and it was actually my idea! What can I say, I've got love for those Hooter girls! Haha. In all actuality for us leaving when a storm was going through Fl, things were going pretty fast. We hit the state line at about midnight, so we were pretty good on time with all the stops we made. So, we're literally 2 hours from my house and I was driving, when his car started making a weird noise and it didn't help that we were almost out of gas! I pulled over and of course he woke up to hearing his car making this funky sound and we both started to get worried. We barely made it to the gas station, but we did. It turns out it was his pulley and it just decided to come off..oh great! I tried to say we should stay the night there and get it fixed in the morning, but no he's a hard head and wanted to get home. So, we trekked on...minus one pulley! We made it 40 more miles when his car started giving out, slowly dying. GREEEAT! Here we are on the side of the road at 3am. $300 and a coked up tow truck driver later..we made it home by 5:30, three hours shy of being on the road for a 24 hour period. Groggy eyed we got into the house and crashed, finally. Crazy day!

That same day/night we had to go to my aunt and uncles anniversary party, so we ended up sleeping almost the whole day. We had to drive to Ft. Lauderdale for the party..yuck, more driving, but we got there. It was good, because C got to meet my family and got along so well with all of them. We had a blast!

Back to Fort Pierce and the calls start coming in from all my friends. They want to meet my "perfect army guy" as everyone calls him cause I'm always talking about him. :) What can I say? He is! The whole time he was here we spent with plenty of friends around, I'm sure he knew he was loved. He was lucky to be here on his birthday, I've never seen somebody smile so much in one day..he definitely knew he was loved on that day! I'm pretty sure he won't forget that one. ;) I wanted to make C's leave amazing as I could be and I hope it was. I just can't wait till the day I see you again. Just 3 months babe!

Meeting You <3

Well, I'm now considered part of this crazy army life. I'm totally in love and it's with yes, a soldier. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

We literally "met" only a short month ago, when he came home on leave. Yes, seriously only a month ago. However we have been pen pals for 10 months. I'm not ashamed to say that I've joined the banwagon of people that have met their special someone online. First off, I've been sending random soldier's care packages for a while now. Most of them write me a little something back to say how much they are appreciated. But honestly, how can I not? So, while I did this I came across this one site with webcams (sounds kinky, but it really isn't!) where you can talk to people and see them at the same time! I was in the chat for like the 2nd week and saw him. He was in his uniform and had his buddy sitting next to him. Ofcourse I was intrigued to talk to him. Just a casual "hey, how are you" kinda thing. It turns out he was actually in Iraq and had only been there for 2 months, so he had a ways to go. We talked for quite some time that first night and things just clicked. He was so funny and I couldn't stop smiling. At that point, I just knew I had to keep talking to him, even just as a friend. I remember the very first time I heard his voice. It was 4am and my mom answered the phone. She came rushing into my room telling me it was him. I thought I knew what butterflies were until that moment. We got to talk for about 20 mins, but it was so worth every second. We talked what seemed like at least once a day, whether it was phone or online. I found myself very lucky because I know they don't get that very often. About 2 weeks later, I went on vacation and sent C his first care package. I didn't hear from him my whole time on vacation and I got extremely worried, but at the same time I thought that maybe he had just moved on and we had our thing. Well, I get home and about a week later I get a call from him. He had been in the hospital because him and his guys had gone over a landmine. Damn, did I feel like a douche. He hadn't forgotten me at all. From then on, we left each other little messages here and there and talked on the phone any time he could call. Valentine's Day came and he sent me the most amazing beautiful flowers, tulips, my favorite! I continued to send him packages, usually every 3 weeks. Months passed as we grew closer and closer, so did our connection. My birthday rolled around in May and he sent me a beautiful necklace with two hearts connecting with our birthstones and our names engraved around it. I think at that moment when I opened the box, I felt could this be something real and could I be falling for a guy when I haven't even met him? My heart knew..and I knew. Summer went by pretty fast, and August was approaching. We had said early on that we wanted to meet each other, but I never thought it would happen until I started feeling so strongly for him. But yes, it was going to happen. First he wanted to come straight here, but I talked him into going home to his family..that was very important! We planned that I would fly up to him in Ohio and then we'd drive down here so he could meet my family and most importantly, my daughter. She's my world and if a guy wants to even think about being with me, he has to accept her. So, August 14th was around the corner...I counted down the days. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 day left. It was here! Going to the airport was so surreal. I didn't even realize what I was doing until the plane was in the air. I was going to meet this amazing guy that I had fallen for. When I was finally in Ohio, I felt like these past months were all coming together. Something I had never planned or thought would EVER happen to me was happening. I took me a while to find him cause he was waiting outside, but when I did..it was just like OH MY GOODNESS..talk about butterflies! Honestly, words can't express how amazingly great it was to see him and run into his arms and give him a huge kiss...FINALLY!